Recipe for Feeling Bitter
But since moving into a house I greatly dislike, I’ve found it hard to muster the enthusiasm to talk about those kinds of things.
I don’t get the same joy I once did from those activities, and it feels like at every turn, we are discovering something else wrong with this house. First it was the 50%-done roof that needed to be 100% redone.
Then it was the carpenter ants, the faulty electrical work, the invasive weeds, the mold in the bathroom walls, and the malfunctioning pool that we eventually dismantled.
Not every day is a happy day, much to my dismay. I often feel a potent mix of anger, anxiety and that it’s a great sad injustice that we only ever get one kick at the can, no do-overs on today.
Sure, I can try again tomorrow and things may be different, but when I desperately want/need a good day, or a fun activity day with the kids turns into whining and lost patience, or when a good mood or exciting plan gets ruined by things far outside my control, I can feel sad and that it’s not fair. That the day got taken away from me, and I don’t get it back.
And I also feel guilty that I’m not more grateful for what I have. And that I’m feeling sorry for myself when I should instead be vibrant, energetic, resourceful and resilient. And boy, am I ever tired.
FUN FACT: As of this writing, mom-guilt is NOT a term found in the dictionary. Let’s hope it doesn’t become a “thing” in an official capacity — because it sucks! lol
I put tremendous pressure on the day being good, and creating happy memories for the kids, and thinking that things should be just so. The house should be clean. The kitchen should be full of healthy food. Meals should be made and not bought. Each day should be filled with laughter and happy moments. That sort of thing. These days I’m feeling that each day is filled with screaming tantrums, interminable mess, and junk food. I’m way off my game.
When a plan goes off the rails, I’m not happy about it. I like to think of myself as a go-with-the-flow type of person but, as it turns out, I don’t think that’s the case!
You want to be bitter? Follow this recipe:
So without further ado, for those who would like to have it, here is the Recipe for Feeling Bitter. Success in achieving bitterness in life is 100% guaranteed if you follow this handy list:
- Always take care of others and put yourself last.
- Ignore your instincts and give into pressure from work, friends, and especially family. (aka Always say yes to others.)
- Do not eat large quantities of green vegetables, and be sure to starve your brain of the essential healthy fats it needs to thrive.
- Eat lots of sugar and fried foods. Blame yourself for having no discipline.
- Avoid exercise, including simple walking.
- Do not make the time to pursue your own interests, do things you actually enjoy doing, or read books.
- Stay up late bingeing on Netflix and give yourself a hard time for not waking up early to get a head start the next day.
- Expect perfection.
- Let your hair grow untamed; and I mean all of it: roots, lady moustache, eyebrows, armpits, crotch and legs.
- Spend all your spare moments cleaning. Do not delegate.
- Do not save money. Compare your situation to other people in a wildly different place in life than you.
- Make sure you do not drink lots of water.
- Do not take vacations.
Conversely, if you are feeling down in the dumps, pick any one of these items and do the opposite.
Thoughts, comments? What do you like to do to kick the blues?
P.S. For those who are down in the dumps and may need some inspiration, I get a good deal of comfort from my Pinterest board called Happy, where I hoard things to make me smile and/or think, from the simple and silly to the more complex and profound. Please come join me there and browse around for a pick-me-up.
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